The loneliness of the Mind

Recently i’ve been starting to feel mentally stronger than i have in a long time, while i know there will be ups and downs.

For this moment in time. I can say ‘i feel fairly happy’ and able to start to make steps forward in getting back to living a life.

Now my busy period has finished with my job, my mind is less focused on that meaning more time of overthinking.

So I’ve been filling it already been out to a singles meet, a EMO night which was a bit random as wasn’t what we thought, so left there for Drag Karaoke and then live music at a local pub. Plus food and a catchup out a good friend.

I’m enjoying being able to be social but it still currently takes a lot out of me mentally, as times i still have to put on a front or fake mask to get over my anxiety but while i won’t let that stop me pushing and getting out to experience life.

As mentioned before i’ve always felt a bit of an outsider, and while this is slowly changing as I’m finding a group of friends who i fit with and accept me.

There is that part of my mind which still contains a void or loneliness even when surrounded by people, i guess it’s a longing to find that one person to click with and enjoy life, laughter and love. Yet i would rather be alone than with the wrong person.

Even though, I’m a big believer in that there is the right person for everyone, but sometimes the challenge is finding them. So ever the optimist, each day starts with hope that today might be that day.

So how to combat loneliness, well thats a question i wish i had the answer for?

When you research it, the replies are things like connecting with others through social activities, joining clubs or groups, reaching out to friends or family, and engaging in hobbies or interests.

It’s that simple 😂

If only, but i agree if you can reach out to people starting via a social media group on a subject you enjoy or there are many social and friendship group, which is how i did it during lockdown. It helps to create a social circle of people you have at anytime day or night. Some now i class as close friends.

So when the loneliness strikes, try to reach out. I promise people will listen and want to help.